Lack of Motivation

Everyone has something that inspires and motivates them, right?  For myself, it is usually music.  I put headphones on and feel like I can conquer the world... depending on the song.  Lately, I have been lacking all inspiration and motivation to do the things I so loved doing.  Thanks to my early pregnancy woes I have mostly been lacking the energy to be motivated or do put my ideas and inspirations into action.  I am well into my second trimester now and starting to feel much more energized.  I can only hope it lasts 20 more weeks, as I have many things to accomplish before Baby Reed gets here! 

I am big on health and fitness.  You cannot achieve happiness and mental wellness if you aren't taking care of your body.  Perhaps my falling off my exercise routine during the first trimester has been the key factor in my loss of motivation.  I am hoping to change that.  I have done my research and will safely get myself back into a routine.  I obviously can't challenge myself like I would love to right now, but I will certainly do what I can.  After all, an active Mommy-to-be is said to have an easier labor.  I am hoping all that hype is true.  Then, there is the eating right.  I have made so many excuses for not cooking like I used to.  As I have been coming across many interesting recipes lately, I am saddened that I have let myself off the cook with home-cooked meals.  We have spent more money eating out the past 4 months than we did a year ago probably for the entire year.  Yuck!!  I would like to scream "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!  WHAT HAVE YOU LET YOURSELF BECOME?!?!"  Realistically I know that this will do me no good at all.  The best thing for me to do now is reorganize, plan, and take action!!  I cannot continue to let this vicious cycle control me.

I have always disliked hearing other women complain about their pregnancies and how "hard" it was for them.  I was much younger when I had Lane and Katy so my body reacted well to both pregnancies and they were both easy.  The only thing I regret is the weight I gained with Lane.  64 pounds to be exact.  Anyhow, I am getting payback for turning my nose up at complaining pregnant women since then.  This pregnancy has not been easy on me.  I can be thankful that I have had no serious complications, but it doesn't excuse the many days I spent lying on the couch praying I would just throw up and the sick feeling would go away, or the many days I spent trying to pry my eyelids open because I was so exhausted I couldn't even keep up my daily activities.  Thus far, it has been no cake walk.  However, while I am trying not to overdo it, I will take advantage of this new found energy to get my health and fitness back on the right track for my pregnancy.  I have no doubt that once this baby has been born I will punish myself for all the bad behavior, but until then I will keep it simple as not to disturb my wee one growing very rapidly inside me.  I am looking forward to a healthier, happier, and more energized me!